This week I had a game plan. I was preparing to launch a new Youtube show, on my already existing Youtube Channel to help give it a new life. What I didn’t know was how God would flip the script and cause a failure to launch experience to happen in my life.
Here’s the deal.
I calculated launching my first “show” with the release date of a movie from my childhood. I had this grand idea in mind. It was genius and going to be pretty ambitious to complete during a very busy week in my life.
On Tuesday evening I started coughing. By Thursday I was in the doctor’s office getting a steroid shot and a list of medications to treat acute bronchitis. Emergency hault. Everything comes to a stop whenever I am sick. Even my husband took off work to be of some assistance getting my son to a performance tonight.
Now let’s look at this.
I went offline for a few days to prepare for the launch of this new show. I was in prayer and meditation about really needing this to work out in my favor. I needed God to show up and show out real quick in my life. Last week my best friend continually asked me when was last the time I had a day off? When was I making time for my body to rest? When was turning off the CEO, Boss, Mommy, Teacher and Wife hat long enough to get time to myself? My response? I’ll do it later.
You know how the older generation says God will sat you down! Well, honey he sure did sit me down complete with a shot in the hip.
God gives us warning signs.
My entire month of July was terrible for business. In the six year’s I’ve been in business I have never lost the amount of money I lost in July. I took orders to rob Peter to pay Paul and ended up owning Peter, Paul, and the clients. I took orders that challenged my body physically. The entire month my health declined. From edema to fatigue, to headaches, swelling and finally a diagnosis of bronchitis.
I had to stop. I had to sit. I had to reflect and I had to heal. That meant disappointing some people by not showing up for what they considered to be “epic” events. It’s two months later now. I started writing this post back in August, now it’s October. I couldn’t contain my emotions long enough to fully comprehend the craziness that would ensue as I wrote this post originally. Since then my entire world has changed. My circle of people has changed and I’ve learned some valuable lessons about trusting other people in a time of need.
In my failure to launch moment I learned a lot about myself.
I learned that when God says its time for something to happen it will and it won’t happen before that time. I learned that God will remove people who are in HIS way as he tries to fulfill his purpose within me. I learned through the realization that my latest business venture didn’t launch when I had it written on the calendar because the other parties I would need to be successful weren’t ready…..
Little did I know when I finally launched Hou’s Caking my best friend would reveal that she was amazing at web design and launched a new business after critiquing the site I pieced together. In my failure to launch God showed me that everybody couldn’t go to the next level with me and those who could would be blessed as well.
In your waiting, in your moments of frustration, listen to that still small voice telling you that the time has not yet arrived. Be obedient and wait. Your blessing and the blessing of others depends on it.